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I just can't take it anymore. My car is still not fixed I can't even find somone to take me to the grocery store. I have no money for food, much less fixing my car. I am just so tempted to give up and the fact that I can't even depend on my mom makes me feel worse. The only reason that I am still going is because of my son. Sometimes I just get so sick of having to be strong, sometimes I just want to be held and cry it all. Sometimes I just want the ability to be weak. I want someone to be strong for me. I have no money for a car, no job to get a new car and everything else that is going wrong. I don't know how much more I can take. I need help.

 in response to bookworm2011...   I know and that is what I am trying to do. My son is my life and if something happened to him it wouldn't be working, he is the reason for everything I do.

 in response to bookworm2011...   He is 18 months old and the sweetest absolute darling ever. I know that sounds like a mom thing to say. But I know that I do not want my son to grow up disrespecting women at all. If he sees this happening to me then he will think that it is okay to treat women this way because he say daddy do it to mommy. I would rather struggle as a single mother then have him learn to disrespect any woman ever.

 in response to bookworm2011...   I did work up until this month, I was working fulltime at a Company called Bethesda Lutheran Communities, but my son started acting really clingy when going to the babysitters and He was never like that before and He also started losing a lot of weight so I had to let that job go. I do have skills. I am very good at computers and typing. I don't have any degrees though I would like to try a stay at home job. I was working with developmentally disabled adults before I quit my job and I loved doing it. But my son is way more important and the fat that he was losing weight that rapidly caused me to think something was going on with the sitter and that he didn't want to be there. I have also worked retail since I was 16. I also use to bartend and waitress.

I am just so stressed out. I Worked a full time job but quit, because my son was becoming sicker and sicker and losing weight while I was working and not around him. I have a finacee who is only worried about his bills and what he has to pay. When I was working I Had to pay my babysitter every two weeks and I had a car payment that I would have to pay every two weeks. I was behind in payments with my babysitter and I had to pay her $110 to what the current bill was and $90 to the back pay. My Fiancee rarely helped me with any of this. When I got my taxes back I helped him with his car payment and I helped him pay the phone bill when it got shut off. Plus I paid my car off and I finished paying the babysitter what I owed her. Now my car is broken down and I can't leave the house. He keeps telling me that it is going to get fixed and he never does it. But as soon as his brother asks he runs out and fixes his car. I am just so sick of coming in last and alsways being put on the back burner all the time. Now I get the electric bill and find out that it is going to be shut off on the 27th and I don't have the money because I helped him out. Also His friend who I paid the car payment to waited two weeks to deposit the check. When I told his friend to cash the check the next day after I gave it to him. Because he didn't cash it right away he cost me $105 the amount of the check which was $80 and a NSF of $25. I have no money to pay the electric bill and I am at the end of my rope. I am just so hopeless. I am just not going to be able to do it. I walk around crying everyday. I am just so sick of being treated bad. I just want to be able to move out and get my own place for my son and me. I am so sick of being treated badly by this person and I don't want to deal with it anymore. I just want to be able to be happy. He starts talking down to and yelling at me in front of my son. He always get everything he wants. While I have to wait. if anyone can at least talk to me, I could really use the moral support.